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Wednesday, May 18

Okay, so I originally planned to write 3 posts today - to make up for totally slacking this week when work started. Obviously, I wrote more. I hope you're all keeping up - I love getting feedback (even if it makes me backtrack and do a little research *cough*CPR*cough*). It's great to know you all are so supportive and are reading along!

So, since the day is only half over, I want to address two things.

First, Wednesday. Today I will be heading to the gym after work, and then trying to get a TON of work done at home. My concern for this week is that, with the new schedule (*ahem* ANY schedule) I am definitely not getting enough sleep. I haven't been going to bed early, and I'm going to crash eventually if this continues. Tonight: despite everything else, I WILL go to bed at a reasonable hour.

The second thing I wanted to talk about was eating disorders. I don't know why, but writing about Fad diets and gastric by-pass made me think about what I've done to try and "be healthy." When I was a teenager, getting thin was one of the most important things to me. Back then, getting "healthy" was something I equated with being thin. It didn't matter what the repercussions were.

Since I see this blog as a way to be perfectly honest about my health - and since I'm talking to the people I trust and know are my biggest supporters, I have to say it: I have dealt with an eating disorder. A doctor called it "EDNOS." This stands for Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (clever, right?)

Basically, it meant that I would fluctuate between not eating and then binge-purging (laxatives or throwing up). When I talked about FAD diets, a thought popped into my head – eating disorders are very similar. Although they are more psychologically-based, they are still seen as “the only way” to get “healthy.”

I’m glad that period of my life is over, and I’m glad to be able to share it with you.

Thanks for reading!

4 comments:

  1. This is why Sharon's comment upset me a bit on the one post. She said, "Just remember, nothing tastes as good as thin feels." This is the anorexic anthem and not necessarily a healthy outlook to take. I know she was being supportive, but I don't want that sticking in your head as a daily affirmation. I know you're smarter than that ;) but, still feel the need to say it...

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  2. OK, so I have an eating disorder I'll now call EDNOS. It's when I eat a piece of candy, I can't stop. I actually get mad at myself for eating it but don't know why I can't stop myself. Eating disorders are more psychological than physical. I need you to get into my head.
    I'm enjoying your blog so much. You inspire me.
    Love, Aunt Sharon

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  3. CPR - AGREED. I actually thought the same thing when I read that comment. I found that mantra so many times when I was "Pro-ana" in hgih school. Blast from the past. I have a better mantra now - "I love food, and being healthy can't change that." =D

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  4. I appreciate your willingness to tell us about that. I know that it must be a little scary to do so. You've come a long way, baby. :D

    Be sure to get sleep! I have a mantra of my own: "Get enough sleep and everything else will follow."

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