Is it really Thursday already? June 23rd.... Wasn't it JUST the end of May? Time is flying this summer!!

OK! Updates...

I have been half and half with my exercise habits - working out each week, but maybe not in a routine yet. I am reading a book right now that focuses on meeting your resolutions, and really changing, and I realized that although I have said "I want to lose weight," and I know my reasons (health concerns, vanity, confidence, past events, and my ambitions) - I haven't fully outlined what this goal means to me.

I have decided to dub this year - From June 23, 2011 to June 23, 2012 as "The Year I'll find myself"

In this, I needed to outline all the yearnings I've been having about how I want to change. I know the things I see myself doing and the places I want to go, but I don't really have a set path there. I realized that I am trying to become a wine guru, a literature geek, fluent in two languages, get my license, learn how to fix a car, become an active volunteer, lose weight, pay back my debts, learn about owning a business, balance a budget, and much more AT ONCE. Of course this is too much!!

Now, I know that I could run five miles a day and, if I still eat crap it's not going to balance out in the end. But I'd decided to solidify all my goals into four solid goals that I think I can legitimately accomplish in one year.

1st - to figure out my mental state. Am I happy? If not, why? I am content, and I know there are things that make me happy. But can I truly say that I am happy overall? I don't know. I know that depression, alcoholism, addiction, and bipolar run in my family. Am I affected by any of these?

2nd - Volunteer on Saturdays. I have wanted to become a regular volunteer for years, probably since before college. When I volunteered with my animal organization, at a food bank back home, and the YWCA in the city - I loved every minute of it. Now, I need to make the commitment and be involved every week. For my do-gooder sanity!

3rd - Save $4,500. I want Invisiline. Braces can be damaging, and one of my insecurities is my teeth. It isn't necessary, but for how much I've wanted this, I need to set a financial goal. Also, $1,500 of this goal is to go towards a new wardrobe. I hope I eventually get to my goal weight - and when I do, I'll need to go shopping! There is really know point in buying new clothes right now.

4th - To lose 135lbs. My healthy range is 110 - 150lbs from now, so that would be about 2-3lbs a week. Now, I know in the beginning you lose more because of water weight, and the amount you have to lose. So I'm hoping to hit bigger numbers at first. And ultimately, I would be happy with losing 52-78lbs by next June, as well. This is 1-1.5lbs/week.

In order to meet #4, I plan to commit to two things: Drinking water all day, and Exercising daily. I want to eventually become that active person I know is inside. A runner, yogi, rock climber, skater, and snowboarder. For not, I will just make sure I either work with my trainer, go to the gym, go for a run, do yoga, walk, work on the Wii, or even just run the stairs in my apartment!

Oh, and I am limiting my restaurant/food budget from now on. It is out of control!!

Finally, Tuesday was weigh-in day. Down 2.6lbs! Back on track =) I think the 5 mile walk last week helped...

Until next time. Thanks for reading!